I’m frustrated. I’m so frustrated. I feel like I’m doing such a good fucking job of being your girlfriend, and then you tell me I’m not. Like what the FUCK Matt? Personally, I thought that we were extremely happy and that I was making and keeping you happy. But apparently not. How can I ever be good enough for you? How can I keep you feeling like your happy in this relationship, when you keep telling me that your unhappy? Fuck, and if I try and talk about this, you make it seem like I’m being a big fat drama queen? Its not like your perfect and there are things that I’m not happy with, but they are SO SMALL that it’s not even worth bringing up. I love you so much, with all of my goddamn heart, but sometimes I feel like you do not appreciate all that I do for you. Like jesus, I’m so fucking nice to you all of the time and you are not nice to me all of the time. Maybe you were just annoyed because you were super hungover and shit, but I gave you an opportunity to get off of the phone after YOU called ME. So don’t get pissed at me after I try and cheer you up for a good 30 minutes and all you basically say is that I’m not a good fucking girlfriend. It hurts my feelings. So much, it breaks my goddamn heart. And you don’t even see it. I just feel so dissapointed in you for how your treating me. This isn’t okay. Not one bit. It makes me so sad. So sorry that I fucking hung up and didn’t say I love you, but your hurting me and I can’t sit by and let you do it. Maybe we need a break from each other, so you can really see what you have. Because I see what a great amazing boyfriend I have, but apparently you don’t think I’m that awesome. Sucks… for both of us. Maybe I’m being overdramatic but I’m really saddened by this and I wish I could explain it to you. Please see what a good girlfriend I am. You say that you love me more than I ever could love you, but your not showing it. Maybe my expectations are too high that we could ever be equals in this relationship. IDK. </3
Alana
